When I can't help myself but think about you


- I force myself to think negative, just to make myself realize your not worth it
- I come up with the perfect comeback if you decide to sweet talk again
- I cry, but deny I'm crying because of you
- I swear and think about how much I hate you
- I picture you getting slapped by me and it makes me smile


I promise myself to not let you hurt me again.


.. and then after all that hatred thinking, I think about how many times you've made me smile, even if it was just for a second. and I'm back to where I started.